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01:23 Sep 30 2012
Times Read: 562
Everytime he kisses me, its like its our first kiss all over again.
He makes me go to jelly, just by looking at him.
I hate being around people, but i never want him to leave.
Could just lay in his arms, all night and all day. Forever :)
This Bexi is smitten :)
15:47 Sep 27 2012
Times Read: 570
I stare at the girl in the mirror
T-shirt, torn up jeans, no beauty queen
But the way that you see me
You get underneath me
And all my defenses just fall away
Fall away
I am beautiful with you
Even in the darkest part of me
I am beautiful with you
Make it feel the way it's supposed to be
You're here with me
Just show me this and I'll believe
I am beautiful with you
I stand naked before you now
No walls to hide behind
So here am i you see all of my scars
Still here you are
I bare my soul and I'm not afraid
Not afraid
I am beautiful with you
Even in the darkest part of me
I am beautiful with you
Make it feel the way it's supposed to be
You're here with me
Just show me this and I'll believe
I am beautiful with you
I've been the strong one for so long
But I was wrong
Does it make you weak if you're needing someone?
I'm not holding back and I know what I want
I am beautiful with you
I am beautiful with you
You want for myself
You get me like no one else
I am beautiful with you
I am beautiful with you
Even in the darkest part of me
I am beautiful with you
Make it feel the way it's supposed to be
You're here with me
Just show me this and I'll believe
I am beautiful with you
00:17 Sep 23 2012
Times Read: 605
Had to write this, just to simply put, how i have the most amazing, sweetest, best friend in the whole world.
Im ill with a cold, feeling pretty shitty, so my best friend came round tonight, armed with stuff to make me feel better, He went out and brought a box and stuff to put in it to make me smile, bath salts to relax, shower n bath stuff, skittles cus he knows i love red ones and cold medicine.
When i went to hospital, i joked that i want a sticker and lollipop for being a brave girl, so he brought me one haha.
Sat with me, made me a origami rose and brought his supernatural dvds round, and just sat with me while i moaned about feeling shit.
Seriously, feel so blessed to have such and amazing friend in my life. He makes all the bad go away :)
14:50 Sep 22 2012
Times Read: 620
Lifes again hectic, between hospital visits, friends, xbox and plenty of retail therapy (TOO much lol i don't think i've spent so much in a week than i have just lately, but they are right, retail therapy lifts your spirits hehe)
Made a new friend, he works at gamestation in town, hes so much like me, my lil twinny. Enjoying his company, its been a while since i've had a male friend who i enjoy being around so much, and doesn't expect anything from me, just my friendship, its almost the most perfect friendship :) Hes coming round tonight, scary movies and skittles hehe.
Brought a few new games for the xbox, Gears of war 3 which i havent even put into the xbox yet, saw 2 and minecraft... which has obliterated my life lol, spending soo much time on there with strawbz :)
Also brought the Hunger games books, which are equally addictive!!
I don't have much time for skype, vr and vf much atm, and im sorry to my friends who i haven't really spoken to for a while, now the biggest worry is off my head and my life settles ill catch up :)
To my friends who have been patient, thankyou, you are true friends, thankyou for your messages and just simply being there :)
For the people who are so wrapped up in themselves, and impatient.. i hope the door bruises your ass on the way out. You really aren't important enough for me to notice much anyway :)
Loves!! ♥
18:38 Sep 21 2012
Times Read: 632
Hospital today, i had a ultrasound scan on my neck, they were going to do a biopsy, but decided not to, as the ultra sound showed up that its what the nurse thought, cysts on my thryroid, the right side (where the swelling is) is filled with blood and ruptured, which is why its swelled so much, but theres no need to worry or do anything, will eventually go down, apparently cysts on the thyroid gland are common in women, mainly women in their 50s but its fine. Nothing more to worry about :)
Thankyou to everyone who took time to send me a message today, and asking how it went.
Means alot to me :)
Love you all :)
PRIVATE ENTRY
18:49 Sep 18 2012
Times Read: 636
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22:37 Sep 15 2012
Times Read: 656
Supernatural night with Kevin :)
Season6 episode 6... lets do this butt pirate :p
11:29 Sep 15 2012
Times Read: 670
Ugh drank waaay too much last night, celebrating good news.
next time i plan on drinking, i must remember to smash my phone b4 hand, drunk dialing is gonna haunt me forever lol
The school runs gonna be awkward from now on haha
KILL ME NOW lol
21:47 Sep 13 2012
Times Read: 700
I went to the hospital today, just wanted to say thankyou to everyone for your kind words, its really good to know, at a awkward / scary time, theres people on here who do actually give a shit.
I'm fine, My blood results are all fine, hormone levels normal etc, she felt around, and said what she thinks it is, is a cyst thats burst, and bleeding into my thyroid gland, which is causing the swelling and pain. I have to wait for another letter to go back next week for a ultra sound scan and a biopsy, just to verify that it is what she thinks it is. Then go back again to discuss with her what happens next, i may have to have a small keyhole op to remove cyst. But im happy with that, rather that than the C word.
Again thankyou for your words and prayers, its really awesome of you all
Love you all lots :)
Specially you Kevin, Marci and Supernova ;) xxx
13:09 Sep 13 2012
Times Read: 725
One hour to go till hospital... feel sick as fuck
i....00:11 Sep 11 2012
Times Read: 746
Im.Crazy.About.Him
and he doesnt even know
16:29 Sep 08 2012
Times Read: 791
Nothing scares me, every, but right now? I'm terrified.
One letter, has scared me more than anything could possibly do.
I'm not one to let things bother me, but the c word, bothers me alot, i NEVER wanna leave my babies, ever. Fingers, legs, toes, everything crossed that its just a problem with my thryroid gland (which is what has swollen and is extremely painful) . :'(
On another note, dyed my hair, felt like a change from black
17:30 Sep 05 2012
Times Read: 813
Uniform - Check
Shoes - Check
School stuff - Check
:sadface: My babies are back at school tomorrow, 6weeks ive had with them... now its back to feeling like the government own my kids :(
Psch
Gonna miss my midgets so much :(
11:35 Sep 04 2012
Times Read: 834
omg yesterday was complete fucking madness
And totally awesome!!!! XD
We went to west midlands safari park, which is what it says, a safari park, drive through all the free roaming animals, then once youre done round there which takes a about a hour and a half. You go through to the amusement park and walk around animals parts, like bat caves, reptile areas, meerkats, penguins, etc etc.
brought wristbands for the kids to go on all the rides, my Lilly and my sisters 2 are only little so they only went on the little rides, so me n my sister brought a wristband each and went on the big rides with bradley, and log flume last... me, bradley and my sister got absolutley soaked, walked round the rest of the day with drenched hair and clothes, was dripping everywhere haha.
My voice is completely gone today from all the screaming from the rollercoasters.
Had the best day ever !
heres a few pics of the day.
Link to my facebook album, which is set to public so everyone can see even if we arent friends on fb :)
Safari park pictures
01:13 Sep 02 2012
Times Read: 863
This is what happens when i get bored...
COMMENTS
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AnaliethiaThionoeSangita
02:23 Sep 30 2012
Ooo nice good for you.
supernova
02:27 Sep 30 2012
I miss that from mine:) ...I'm so happy for u!!!
Jynx
16:44 Sep 30 2012
lol thanks.
I just radiate with happy lol
He really is what ive been missing all these years. :)